Thank you all for the kind words. This day was gut wrenching 5 years ago. After days of mostly sleeping and not talking, she woke up that morning, looked at me and said I love you. I said I love you too, mom. Then she said I am so tired of fighting please let me die. UGH! I was there alone but had to hold back the tears as she spoke her last words to me. I vowed to stay strong for her, no way was I going to let her see me cry. As she drifted back off, I stepped out of the room and broke down and started making calls and arrangements. Because of her and how she raised me, I was able to, and still do, remain strong. At 930 pm she took her last breath, but I know I felt her soul lift up to heaven that morning after I assured her everything would be ok. God I miss her. My mom.. such a beautiful person.
Sorry to spill my feelings out.. started crying as i typed this out and started to erase it all. Thanks for reading. I needed a good cry. I'm going to go get my kids out of school and spend the day with them to help keep my mind occupied.