Lace that I know of there are no psychiatrist on here . And I believe when a person is being this descriptive that you very likely need to see a doctor & get some help with what your going through . I will pray for you & I'm sure some of the others on here will also . But God gives you free will to be able to make your choices . And we are held accountable for our choices when we believe in Christ . No matter who you are or what you believe everyone needs help with something in their life time .
@Lace : Prayers a sun ray shines on you and takes the depression away. I went through something like this a couple of years ago, praying and finding peace helped me. Also getting a new puppy, I dont even remember what we did before we had her.
@brightlights : Oh that's funny hahahahahahaha I thought it was time to pray . Can't go wrong praying . I'd have never ever figured it out . I didn't watch that show . Never liked country music till sometime in my 60's & I like some of Patsy's & I love Reba's song about giving this world back to God . The CMA's are tonight & I do plan to watch . Thanks Brightlights